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My life as I know it.

Sat Jan 27, 2007, 5:36 PM
Wow. It's been a good long while since I've been here. I feel like I can say whatever I want, and no one will judge me. Mostly because I know no one will ever read this. I'm tired. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm tired of depending on people. People suck. I'm tired of having to tip-toe around on eggshells because my roomates hate just about everything I do. I can't even act like myself when I'm home. I have to go to somebody else's house and be myself. Or I have to drive around in my piece of shit car and be myself. I'm tired of going in and working my ass off day, after day, after day, after day, after day at my job, because I'm hell bent on proving to EVERYONE that I can make it, but feeling like it's getting me nowhere. I just got passed up on a promotion because......well, they couldn't really give me a straight answer. They said it was because I didn't go to the right training classes first. Bullshit. I know this sounds like I'm whining, but I never do that. Not really. Not when it comes to important stuff. I can't even turn my brain off at night to go to sleep. I lay awake for hours. I don't remember the last time I actually got a full night's sleep. I just found out my own sister thinks I'm practically a failure. Maybe she's right. But little does she know, she's just like me when I was her age. I hate to say it, but she's gonna turn out just like me. Sucks for her, huh? It's a real shitty feeling when you discover no one believes in you. You're a great person, everyone likes you, but no one really believes in you. I think that's what's been the most exhausting. You know, I think I really do want someone to read this. I think that I'm hoping someone will let me know that it's not as hopeless as I'm making it out to be. Someone out there's gotta believe in me, right? I hope so. I'm really starting to lose faith in myself. I'm hanging on by a thread, and I'm so tired of dangling. I'm doing everything in my power to keep my head above water, and I'm just about tired of swimming. Someone out there's gotta believe in me, right? Right?

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:iconglaze73:
~glaze73 Jan 28, 2007, 2:30:25 AM
thx for the fav. =)
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~jesusraves Jan 30, 2007, 10:39:31 AM
No problem. I was really impressed with your work.

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a stone in your hand...is worth more than...two birds in your bush......or something.
:iconjesusraves:
~jesusraves Apr 15, 2005, 7:11:38 AM
Heeey!! Why isn't anyone else watching me? Is it because I'm crazy? :sniff: :depressed:

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a stone in your hand...is worth more than...two birds in your bush......or something.
:iconamniculus:
~Amniculus Apr 20, 2005, 5:54:46 PM
Sometimes, someone is watching you but is not telling you that he/she is watching you. that is how a real stalker is.

*ahem

and I am not a real stalker because I have revealed myself from behind the whatever I was behind and am therefore no longer hidden and not a stalker because when a stalker reveals him/herself they usually do something rash but this is just a typed message and not anything rash although words can be viewed as rash but never the ones that come out of me because

I am sane.

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my chance to be witty~yeah right
:icongenesgirl:
~genesgirl Apr 19, 2005, 6:37:57 AM
It's a possibility. Go around through my friends and Kristin's and see if you like any of them. Comment if you do, you may start making friends that way. That's how I started.

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x Rage More x
Dorenu-San

"Kill all the blacks
Kill all the reds
If there's war between the sexes
There'll be no people left
And so it goes
Around again
But now and then we wonder
Who the real men are"
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~jesusraves Apr 13, 2005, 4:37:34 AM
And Jerk-face, I can't deal with all that business going on. Thanks anyway, tho!!

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a stone in your hand...is worth more than...two birds in your bush......or something.
:icongenesgirl:
~genesgirl Apr 13, 2005, 5:58:51 AM
Yeah, I thought you'd have some problems going on.

ENJOY IT ANYWAY!!!!!!!!!!

or we will all be doooooooooooomed.

DOOMED, I SAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!

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x Rage More x
Dorenu-San

"Kill all the blacks
Kill all the reds
If there's war between the sexes
There'll be no people left
And so it goes
Around again
But now and then we wonder
Who the real men are"
:iconjesusraves:
~jesusraves Apr 13, 2005, 4:36:37 AM
You're welcome...and thanks!!

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a stone in your hand...is worth more than...two birds in your bush......or something.
:icongenesgirl:
~genesgirl Apr 12, 2005, 7:24:10 AM
Hey, E... :stab:

Just going on with our conversation the other day.

And now, randome stuff.

:licking: :petting: :boo: :fork: :evillaugh: :pacman: :nana: :finger: :blahblah: :pissedoff: :sprint: :chew: :pills: :matrixfight: :bow: :sadangel: :fart: :picknose: :angered: :stupidme: :slap: :sarcasm: :bonk: :smooch: :ignore: :sarcasticclap: :heartbreaker: :clueless: :ninjabattle: :strip: :backstab: :poke: :highfive: :spank: :slyfart: :abduction:

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x Rage More x
Dorenu-San

"Kill all the blacks
Kill all the reds
If there's war between the sexes
There'll be no people left
And so it goes
Around again
But now and then we wonder
Who the real men are"
:iconfloofty87:
~floofty87 Apr 8, 2005, 1:20:34 PM
Thanks for the fav :) and welcome to DA!
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